Personal Truth Bomb

I figure if I am doing this blog thing, it will be authentic. I don’t want to be one of those people who is always super pumped and positive even if I am not feeling it.

I woke up Tuesday and I felt under the weather both physically and emotionally. I spent a good part of the day on my sofa and even took a nap which I do not do. I was planning my week and realized that I needed to decide on blog topic. Literally, I was like ugh. I can’t even. I felt stuck and started down the rabbit hole of my wellness practice is not really working out like I thought. My older (as in time) friends probably think I am crazy, and all woo woo. People are likely hesitant to try some of the mindfulness and energy offerings because they are afraid to be labeled woo woo or new age freaks. I literally just could get any traction in my mind or heart about anything. Then I complained to my husband about it. Like he was supposed to know what to do to fix this.

I wanted quick fix. Well, not happening. I remembered something a wise woman told me years ago when I was going through some things. She said that I needed to sit with all of my emotions, thoughts and feelings. Just sit with them and in them and process them. I remember telling her that sounded perfectly awful! She said that was too bad.

I realized this was going to be a week of leaning in and processing the feelings to see why they were there and how I could address them. Quick fix or running in the opposite direction was not going to work. I was being called to dig in and address something.

There is a difference in employing wellness technics like attitude of gratitude and positivity and realizing that I need to do some inner work. I also struggled with the concept that I am here telling people how great life can be, and that I can help them finds a peaceful, calm grateful, happy place for themselves. For a minute, I felt like a fraud.

Then I just leaned into my feelings and realized that FEAR was at play here and that I needed to deal with it so it would stop returning with such force. If I looked at all my rabbit hole thoughts, they were all related to fear. Fear of being judged. Fear of failure, Fear of change. Fear of a different path. I was struggling with different things that all boiled down to FEAR!! It was keeping me from doing what I deeply want to do and feel called to do. This fear was causing me to have a conflict about my old versus my new way of thinking.

I did not write my blog or think about much of anything. I did do my gratitude practice and I meditated. I also did dome energy work on myself and messaged a gal that is Queen of the Truth Bomb! She had done a 2021 reading for me. I looked back at my notes from our Zoom video and what did I find but some factual info on some conflicts and transits in the sky that were lending themselves to these feelings that I was having. I still did not write my blog. I sat with that information.

I got up today and had an “Aha” moment! I am not finished my journey; I do not need to be perfect to help others. Actually, I am better able to work with people because I am going through things just like them. I also realized that FEAR was keeping me from feeling my Personal Power! Guess what, I have worked hard to get where I am, and I am really loving it. I want my Personal Power more than I want to be fearful!

Today I did my morning coffee, meditation routine and felt completely ready to blog. I felt like being authentic and open about how I struggled this week. My attitude and emotions were not great this week. However, I did the work to see why and addressed what was causing it. My tools as a meditation and energy practitioner helped me, but It still required work! I also leaned into the feelings and leaned on my support team of like-minded people. Today, I feel clear and strong. I feel unapologetic and unafraid to be who I am called to be and am unconcerned with the people who may think I am woo woo witchy crazy. If you’re feeling it, great. Reach out via email, Fb or IG. I am not perfect, but I am perfectly happy being here for you!

Side note: Renata is the Queen of the Truth Bomb. She is Align with Renata on IG.